The Girl and the Sea

The Girl and the Sea

Dear Thinker,

It is the first day of the New Year, and I have a whole bundle of emotions as I look into the vast possibilities that await me. The cold breeze stings my ears, and my mind is yet to stop as the dopamine influx urges me to dive. I am right at the edge, overthinking, overanalysing, criticising, reflecting, processing. What should I do to make me better? How can I be the best version of myself?

If I work myself until I am all but bones, does that mean I did better? What does best even mean? The definition of best varies from one person to another, just as much as your DNA is different from mine, yet we compete and compare. Or am I just thinking negatively? No matter.

I want to be different. I mean, everybody does. But... I mean it. Instead of diving into the endless sea of possibilities, maybe I'll walk there. Allow for the breeze to numb my ears a little so that I can hear the gentle whisper within my heart. 

Time is money, they say, when did money become so valuable?

Instead, Why are we given time? Is it to toil for things that will not last? Or is there something that lasts that we aren't paying attention to?

There are far too many distractions that take our time even before we process the fact. This year, I aim to detach myself from these distractions. Practise simple living and focus on what matters most. Of course, I still have a paper to write and experiments to complete if I am to finish my degree on time. But even then, I will work on being disciplined enough to manage my daily tasks whilst keeping my eyes on the true prize.

I want to blog and vlog weekly, read two books a month, one fiction and one nonfiction, exercise regularly, work on my Japanese and French and practise the cello and guitar. Most importantly, I want to read my bible and pray every day.

I do not want my focus to falter when the waves come crashing onto me. So, I take this step into the uncharted waters of 2025, expecting failure, difficult days, and unexpected turns, but I will succeed.

What about you?